Rough Sex for this Submissive School administrator

Hello I am Jean, a 49 year old woman with a terrific body from exercising and eating right, an administrative worker for a local high school. I date regularly but for a few years now all of the men I have been dating have not fulfilled in me what I have always craved. When I was a younger engaged in a lot of sex to men who knew how to satisfy my sexual desire to be used and abused by them for their sexual pleasure. Using me for that purpose is something that really gets me off and is what is important for myself enjoying sex, the rough attention and doing what I am told to do.

I have been married when I was in my 30’s, but divorced after a few years for several reasons. A couple being that of my husband’s, but I have to admit a weaknesses of my own concerning sex and the attention I need he did not always provide. What is it with men today? When I was younger I could easily find a man who could satisfy this sexual desire within me, a man with a strong sexual drive and was not apologetic about taking from me what he wanted. Today the men I’m dating seem more apprehensive, less aggressive in fulfilling this as well as my own desire. Is the American male becoming less a real man and more of a cowed individual with a cock he does not know how to use on a amorous woman that will encourage his rough masculine sexual drive within him from a woman like myself who enjoys a man being being that way.

In dating these days, I have had men who actually begged me for sex, which of course I never did being such a real turn off for me. Although I’ve been fucked and sucked a lot of cock on my dates with some men I have dated, they have not been fulfilling that strong need within me to be treated the way I like it, giving the abuse the humiliation I need so desperately as part of my own pleasure.

But things have changed for me after a few certain events took place at the school last winter. It started out as a rough day at work. Paperwork and my duties there were overwhelming, plus people were parading in and out of the admin office wanting something only made things worst. My headache I had was killing me and by lunch time I was not hungry and decided to get away from things for my half hour lunch break. Taking some pain medicine and going to my car for some quite time to relax from things I felt would be good for me. I knew It was cold and snowing outside on the cars of the parking lot as I grabbed my coat headed towards the car and getting in. I leaned my seat back and rested for a while keeping warm with my coat as my headache eased and I began to feel better. I must have laid there for almost the half hour before I begin to hear voices of some of the young students the school near my car.

Most of the time I don’t listen to them because their generation and mine have not much in common, but hearing a few choice words caught my attention. What I was hearing surprised me but was very exciting and begin to make me warm inside and hang on every word being said. Of the young men talking, one of them was discussing a sexual relationship he was having with one of my co-workers to the other two students, the young man was giving the others details of what both he and she had been doing loud enough that I could hear every word and what I was hearing definitely turned me on and made my pussy wet from his story. They had no idea I was there listening being we were the only ones out there in the parking lot for lunch and not knowing I myself was inside the snow covered car of mine.