Curious friend’s, give in and lose control

I spent 20 years of my life, avoiding a wild craving I had for a long time. I often thought, how much fun it could be, to suck on a nice big juicy cock. I always forced myself to put it out of my mind and avoided the steamy desire I felt inside. After I divorced my impossible wife and moved out, I started getting these cravings more and more.

I began to watch more guy on guy porn video’s on my computer, some made me cum harder than normal. It was kinky, nasty and turned me on way too much. It looked like fun sucking a big cock head, and I began to accept it my desires without embarrassment.

My interest grew and I began to give into my wild temptations. I drove way out of my area and went to this huge sex shop in the city. I took my time and checked out everything in the store. I was tantalized by all the kinky stuff they had. I bought some battery powered vibrators, life like cocks of all shapes and sizes and sex oils. I spent way to much money and got home as fast as I could.

Living alone now, I was free to explore my wild desires anytime I pleased. I set up all my new toys and turned on my computer to some hot guy videos. I stripped naked and got my kink on. I lubed up my ass and began to try out my new vibrators. I laid on my bed with my legs in the air and slowly slid a pulsating vibrator in my rear for the first time. I used the remote to change the speed and pulsations. With the sounds of sexy guys having sex in the background and a vibrator working my ass, I was lost in my own little world. I barely got my hand on my cock and shot a big hot steamy load all over my chest. I was feeling kinky as hell and tasted my cum for the first time. It wasn’t gross at all. In fact, the taste turned me on. My cum was hot and a little salty, but I loved it. I was enjoying this way too much.

I pulled the vibrator out and cleaned up my naughty mess. Then I put on some sexy panties and grabbed one of my new big rubber cocks. I watched the guy on my monitor sucking a big cock and copied his actions. I opened my mouth and sucked on the head like it was me sucking this hot guys boner, on the screen. It was very erotic and way more fun than I ever had, by myself. I loved my new toy collection, it was worth every nickel.

Soon I was doing this kind of kinky stuff every chance I got. I taught myself to suck cock with all those rubber toys. After a while I started craving the real thing even more. I wanted to find a hot guy, with a big cock to have sex with. I wanted my first to be with someone I was very attracted to. Hopefully a handsome, bi-curious, straight guy like me.

After several months of looking at guys in a new way, I realized this wasn’t going to be easy to find such a stud. I enjoyed looking at men in this way, it was strangely erotic.. I stole glances at the hottest guys I saw. Checking out there chest, ass and looking for signs of meat in their pants or shorts. I knew that I was way more attracted to straight guys, openly guy guys freaked me out…

I craved a big strong handsome type of guy, they were out there, I always saw a few around town. I’d go home to my toy collection after and picture my self doing all kinds of kinky stuff with the last hot guy I saw.

I was getting a little frustrated until one special day. I was at my bank and spotted a new hunk of a teller. He was younger, taller and very handsome. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. He was dressed very nice, and looked very masculine. I was pleased that he ended up being my teller that day. His badge said Doug and he greeted me very nicely.